Cheers

We fell in love and fell out of love, seems pretty normal right? It starts from 'I like you' to 'I love you' to 'I loved you'. As painful as it sounds we have to accept the fact that some things and some people arent meant to stay. Although I wish you did.. I wish you tried harder to keep me.. To not let me walk out of your life, but I guess I wasn't that important in your life to live without. That you were better off without me. That I was just a burden to you. I wish you all the best in the future though, Cheers. 壟

Just one of those nights

Just having one of those moments where I wish I had someone I can run to. I guess its one of those moments when I wished I had a partner again. I know I should be used to being single and I am trying my best not to rely on someone, sighs just one of those long nights with my thoughts I guess..

I owe you one

There are some things that are hard to forget, and I must admit youre one of them. Although our relationship didnt last forever like we promised we would be, Im glad for the memories you left me with. The forever we thought we had did come to an end but what happened in between surely was magical. I experienced many first and some would most likely to be my last, and for this I owe you a 'Thank you'. I went through my old photos today and to be honest I was smilling as I went through them. It seems like it was only yesterday that we were still together teasing each other, fooling around and calling each other names. Although I have no clue what you've been up to now, I hope youre living your life to fullest. Im sharing this not because I want you back but because I want to let you know the feeling you left me will always be there, just like a tattoo.

Attention

So I've come to realise that I only use Love as an excuse to blame as to why I'm feeling like this, but ive come to realise that its actually attention that I should focus on. You see Ive been thinking, people arent happy because they're 'in love' but because they have someone or something who pays attention or they pay attention to. I've come to realise that people who are content in life have someone they have focus on, whether this is their partner, their pet or their hobby. Its never really just a person. So i guess I've just got to find something or someone to give my full attention too. Good luck to you too 😊

Moments

People say things they dont mean all the time, right? Its cause were so caught up in the moment that we would pretty much say and do anything to get what we want. But what about after? After we do get what we want, do we just forget the promises we told them we would do? The person we told them we would be? Hmm..

Giving

Growing up I was taught that it was better to give than to receive, that i should never expect anything in return. Yeah I get that but I was never taught when it was right to stop giving, that it was enough, that its better to just let it be. Giving someone something is one thing but when we've given too much to someone then they get used to it. They rely on it. They end up depending on it. Depending on you. Up to what point do you stop and think 'maybe this is enough?' 'Maybe I should stop?' Or would you just ignore this thought and just continue giving?

Passion

Hello
So this has been bothering me for a while now. How do you find your passion? Do you look for it? Does it just comes for you? Or what if you missed your chance? Recently I've been trying to find new motivations but I just cant seem to find any. Sighs.

Happy New Year

Wow. It feels like this year flew by but at the same time it feels like it went soo slow. So much has happened, so many things has changed, people came and left, and just like that its the end of the year.
Happy New year (:

Consequences

Every bad decision we make comes with consequences. So why can't we learn from them sometimes? Whether this be relationship related, friendship, even just some simple things, why is that? Why do we put ourselves in situations where we know we'll lose at the end but still does it? I really want to know why.. So I can stop doing it.

Change

Change. Something not everyone is confortable with. I mean why change when everything is in its rightful place right? Why change when everything we have now is perfectly fine as it is? Some people would always thrive for more while some would be too scared to reach out. Why is that? What stops a person from wanting more? What stops a person from achieving more? Shouldnt we all just focus on wanting more?

Just dropping by

Hello.. again

Its been a while huh? How have you been? How have I been? To be completely honest I cant tell if I am getting better or worse. Yeah I've been enjoying life but now I'm questioning whether this lifestyle is worth keeping or should I start heading to a more stable path. I've been playing around for too long that I think its time for me to get serious again. But then, how do I do that? How do I change the way I am now for the better (if thats what you call it)?
I know that only I control my life, since it is my life after all. Ignoring all the other variables. At the end of the day I decide what happens to me, Right? So I just need to take a deeeeeeeep breath and remain calm. I can do this. I can fix myself without anyone.. hopefully.
Have a nice day~

Hello

Hello, its been a while.
Tbh I don't know what to write here anymore. I made this to motivate myself but even I have a hard time looking for inspirations. Im losing reason to write and so I dont know when the next time ill write again.
I dont even know if anyone opens this anymore. Lol. 

Hope

So while watching tv the other day, a certain quote stood out to me. It was 'We tell ourselves that everything will be alright, not because there's a guarantee it will be, but because we give ourselves hope.' I guess it stuck to me because of how true it was. It will never be certain that everything will be fine the next day, but believing that it could be helps ease our thoughts and not overthink problems and cause more stress. A simple question like 'how are you?' If answered when we are going through tough times, we tend to focus more on what's wrong than what could be changed and fixed. So usually we rant about how everything is going wrong and none of it can be fixed rather than actually dealing with the problem and finding solutions for them. 

It's your story

You make our own happy ending. I mean you are the main character in your own fairy tale. You decide how your story goes, whatever happens in it depends on what you do. 

Though it might seem like you are doing the same thing everyday, looking back it's actually different. You are not the person you were yesterday. So enjoy life :)

I've been MIA

So I haven't been been able to blog recently, not because I've been busy but I just can't seem to be positive recently. I didn't want to just rant all my problems here but instead I want to fill this blog with words to inspire me and hopefully you. So I've been trying to lift myself up and it's working in some ways. 

Hopefully I find inspirations to start writing again. :)

You're not alone

So I just watched the movie 'if I stay' and it's one of those typical romantic love story movies. I'm not one to cry from watching a movie but this was one I was willing to (although I didn't LOL). The movie made me realise that there are more than just your family who are always there for you and who are willing to support you no matter what. Though it may seem like you've lost everyone you love, there are still your friends and other people who are going to be there when you need someone. You may be blinded and think that so little or barely anyone care for you but don't ever forget that there are still friends who care for you even though you guys haven't contacted each other in months or years. So you're never alone. Don't forget that. 

Memories

Certain places, smells, music, photos and even certain actions could bring memories back. These memories could either be fun and exciting or haunting and horrible. They could either be memories you would want or never want to forget but what can you do? What's there is there, no matter how much you want to avoid it, you would always be reminded by these certain things. It's how you interpret these memories in the end that would show who you really are. I mean, you could always try to avoid it or change your views of it and just learn not to make the same mistake twice or let it haunt you and be afraid of it.

Friends

So the other day while I was driving, I heard on the radio that a research was conducted and they found that only 50% of your friends consider or see you as a friend, the rest only see you as a colleague or someone they know. At first I thought 'damn that's bullsh*t, that can't be true' but thinking about it now I actually see the truth behind it. Looking at my circle of friends I only see them as a colleague, while to them, I'm someone they could run to and I guess consider a 'close friend' and vice versa to some of what I consider as 'close friends' who only see me as 'a friend'. But you know what, as much as this saddens me, I do not mind at all. This is the reality. We'll meet people and have people in our life who we might trust more than they trust us, this is 'normal'. We just have to put and invest our time to the people who are worth our time. We might not get it first round but there's always next round and the one after. Life gives us as many chances as possible till we get it right. That's just how it is. So if you end up trusting the wrong person this round, then better luck next time :) 

Thank you

So sad to say good bye to you today.. I really hope you enjoyed your week here as much as I do. It made me realise what I'm missing out on. Hope to see you soon though :) thank you for coming down to spend time with me Bestie ❤️

Battles

Have you ever reach that point where you've been taking so much sh*t in life that you're so immune to the pain? like it doesn't hurt anymore? I like to think 'if it hurts more now, it'll hurt less later' the sooner you suck up the pain the sooner you'll get used to it. Though some won't agree to it, it's my logic I guess and it's what works for me. I get told that I can be heartless at times, that I have no feelings, that I should put others before myself, to stop being selfish.. But am I really being selfish? By putting myself first instead of them and being 'heartless', I'm making them stand up on their own two feet. Teaching them not to depend on anyone with things they could solve and should be solved only by them. Some people get so used to depending on someone else that they end up being the other persons burden, although this doesn't apply to everyone, there are some instances where this is the case. And they don't get that because they're so focused on themselves that they forget that the person they're depending on has their own battle to face with no one to depend on but themselves.