Restart

Sometimes I wish I could just ended up in an unknown place. With no one knowing who I am, with no responsibility, no one having any expectations for me, no problems. Wouldn't that be just.. Amazing? It's like restarting who you are. A restart in life. Forgetting all your past mistake and having absolutely no responsibility whatsoever. Too bad it doesn't happen though..

Before it's too late

A small fire if left alone can burn a whole building. A small hole of not stitched together can get bigger. A small tear on the paper can create a bigger tear. My point is things shouldn't be left alone to be fixed later. If it's possible to be confronted then and there, then you should take the chance and do it. Leaving it for later on will only make it harder for yourself. No matter how hard and scary it is, you shouldn't back out. Especially because you're doing yourself and other people a favor, so you shouldn't feel bad at all. Instead be proud of what you did because you've done the right thing. You've prevented a future problem for yourself. Saved yourself some trouble. 

Time

Don't you just wish you could control time? Play, pause, fast forward and rewind life. How good would that be? For me that's one of the most powerful thing we should never get our hands on. Imagine how much we would over use it. The greed and selfishness would come out no matter how much we think we know a person, we all have it in us. But I do wish, that even once, we could choose to redo something in life. Just once. No more no less. 

Past and present

I always hear my parents say 'you're only on your way there while I'm on my way back' it practically means while we're learning to do something, they've already learned it. So this is why I sometimes don't take my parents advice. Because things change, we don't do the same practice we did 5-10 years ago. And because our parents learned it their way they aren't up to date with how things are done now. They're 'old school' I guess :P

Find the positive

Sometimes it's hard to find the positive in life, especially when all you've been dealing with recently are all negative things. But what can you do.. Life isn't made to be easy. It's meant to challenge you and to put you through series of endless test to make sure you learn and extend your knowledge, since we do learn from our mistakes. So despite dealing with all these negative things, always make sure to remind yourself that it won't always be rough road and that it'll always get better one way or another. 

Thank you

Thank you. Thank you for being in my life. I really am glad I met all of you guys and not even once did I regret any of it. Thanks for putting up with me haha I'm a handful but you guys still managed to put up with my crazy personality lol. Thanks for spoiling me on my birthday. I couldn't have asked for more. ❤️

They come and go

Waves comes and go. Just like the people we have in our lives. There's no guanratee that they'll stay and you can't force them to stay either. But what can you do. Nothing but accept it right? No matter how much you want them to stay, if they want to go then they will. But the good thing about waves are they will always be there. That doesn't mean that they'll bring the same people back but they will always bring someone back with them for you. Although there's no guanratee that the new ones will stay but at least you know you will never be truly alone unless you turn your back on them. 

Starting over again

To some people, starting over again just seems to be the only answer. I mean it's a fresh start yeah? Nothing to fix. Standing at the starting point. But knowing that you've come so far, although it's been rough and tough path, you've come a long way. So are you willing to ignore all that just so you could go to a much smoother road and start again? Which one would you choose? Knowing that there's no guanratee that the path you're into now is going to get smoother or the new path with always stay smooth. 

Decisions

Parents are the ones who taught us what's right and what's wrong, right? They helped us get to where we are right now and help us decide what we could and/or want to be. So when we go against our parents decision, does that mean we have learned enough to stand up on our own without their help or we are just doing this to go against from what they want us to be? 

Something new

Scary or exciting? I can't decide whether trying something new is scary or exciting. I guess it's both. Scary since you don't know what could happen next but that's also that's the fun of it. I guess that's why I'm never too scared to walk around and wonder off on my own (unless it's night time of course) because it's a new adventure, new place to explore. Something unexpected could and might happen.

'The more something scares you, the more you should probably do it' it makes sense right? Trying to face what scares you and that feeling of accomplishment once you've done it. It's rewarding. 

The future holds

Future hold no assurance. Anything is possible. We won't know what could happen in the next hour, day, month and definitely what a year from now could bring us. So why do we plan ahead? Would you call it a short term goal or us choosing a path without considering other possibilities? Would that mean well be missing out or its for the better?

Just like a blue rose. Life sure is full of mystery. 

Time flies

Isn't it crazy how this time last year you're in a COMPLETELY different type of situation. Almost like a different life with a different you surrounded by different people. Would you wish to be standing where you were a year ago or be where you are right now? 

Isnt it crazy?!

Isn't it crazy that a place you once enjoyed going to and spending nearly every single day of the week somehow just drags your mood down? Only because going there now you don't feel that same joy and excitement anymore, only the past. It doesn't seem as lively as it was before. The people there that you used to say hi to and actually enjoy seeing, you now avoid and as much as possible try not to see them or let them see you.

Just a thought

 Today I was asked and also asked series of questions that would make you question which one is more important to you. One of them was ‘What is more difficult for you, looking into someone eyes when you’re telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone eyes when they are telling you how they feel?’ I answered looking into the person’s eyes when they’re telling me how they feel. I mean there’s no right or wrong answer here purely because we all have different views and different valid arguments and past experiences to support our decision. But now it just makes me question, if you don’t see them more than a friend, will you be courageous enough to break their heart there and then or are you going to wait later on telling them that you’ll ‘think about it’ then break it later on? Which one would hurt more? Which path would you choose?