You're not alone

So I just watched the movie 'if I stay' and it's one of those typical romantic love story movies. I'm not one to cry from watching a movie but this was one I was willing to (although I didn't LOL). The movie made me realise that there are more than just your family who are always there for you and who are willing to support you no matter what. Though it may seem like you've lost everyone you love, there are still your friends and other people who are going to be there when you need someone. You may be blinded and think that so little or barely anyone care for you but don't ever forget that there are still friends who care for you even though you guys haven't contacted each other in months or years. So you're never alone. Don't forget that. 

Memories

Certain places, smells, music, photos and even certain actions could bring memories back. These memories could either be fun and exciting or haunting and horrible. They could either be memories you would want or never want to forget but what can you do? What's there is there, no matter how much you want to avoid it, you would always be reminded by these certain things. It's how you interpret these memories in the end that would show who you really are. I mean, you could always try to avoid it or change your views of it and just learn not to make the same mistake twice or let it haunt you and be afraid of it.

Friends

So the other day while I was driving, I heard on the radio that a research was conducted and they found that only 50% of your friends consider or see you as a friend, the rest only see you as a colleague or someone they know. At first I thought 'damn that's bullsh*t, that can't be true' but thinking about it now I actually see the truth behind it. Looking at my circle of friends I only see them as a colleague, while to them, I'm someone they could run to and I guess consider a 'close friend' and vice versa to some of what I consider as 'close friends' who only see me as 'a friend'. But you know what, as much as this saddens me, I do not mind at all. This is the reality. We'll meet people and have people in our life who we might trust more than they trust us, this is 'normal'. We just have to put and invest our time to the people who are worth our time. We might not get it first round but there's always next round and the one after. Life gives us as many chances as possible till we get it right. That's just how it is. So if you end up trusting the wrong person this round, then better luck next time :) 

Thank you

So sad to say good bye to you today.. I really hope you enjoyed your week here as much as I do. It made me realise what I'm missing out on. Hope to see you soon though :) thank you for coming down to spend time with me Bestie ❤️

Battles

Have you ever reach that point where you've been taking so much sh*t in life that you're so immune to the pain? like it doesn't hurt anymore? I like to think 'if it hurts more now, it'll hurt less later' the sooner you suck up the pain the sooner you'll get used to it. Though some won't agree to it, it's my logic I guess and it's what works for me. I get told that I can be heartless at times, that I have no feelings, that I should put others before myself, to stop being selfish.. But am I really being selfish? By putting myself first instead of them and being 'heartless', I'm making them stand up on their own two feet. Teaching them not to depend on anyone with things they could solve and should be solved only by them. Some people get so used to depending on someone else that they end up being the other persons burden, although this doesn't apply to everyone, there are some instances where this is the case. And they don't get that because they're so focused on themselves that they forget that the person they're depending on has their own battle to face with no one to depend on but themselves. 

Just think

Sometimes it bothers me how some people don't get the fact that you don't have to be in constant contact with a certain person to know that they're your friend. As much as it sounds reassuring to constantly have someone to talk to, I really don't see the need to force yourself to constantly interact with people as a way to 'prove' your friendship with them,  actually I find it annoying. Especially when they're practically just forcing themselves to think of conversations that aren't going anywhere, just to have that sense of comfort that they are important to you.. I mean yes I'm only one message away to help you with your problems but that doesn't mean you have to dump all your problems on to me especially when some of these are only you can solve or there really isn't anything to fix. 

Be careful of what you say

I grew up with my parents telling me that if I have nothing nice to say I shouldn't say anything at all. But it seems to me that these days it doesn't apply at all. Words can cause so much damage physically and mentally to a person with a  strong heart, imagine someone with a weak heart then. Though saying something is so easy to let out it is extremely hard to take back, only because it can't. Once it's done it's done.. Can't be reversed.. Can't be erased. So be careful with your words because one wrong move and you could shatter a fragile heart into pieces with no intention of doing so. 

(I had a small cut in my gums hence the bleeding but it has stopped and is in process of healing)

Walls

We all have secrets that we try our best to hide, secrets that we know are better hidden and unspoken off.. So what do you do when someone comes and tries to break all the walls you put up? With a goal to find out what's hidden right in the middle of all these walls, to find out the deepest secrets you try to hide. What would your next move be? 

Cage

Parents will do anything to protect their children, right? Making sure nothing bad will happen to them and ensuring that they're always safe. But at what point does this stop applying? Where do we draw the line? When do they need to realise that we need to make mistakes to learn on our own? What does it take for them to realise that the bird they once took in to care for needs to be free from their cage to learn, explore and be themselves..? Hmm..